....I have had an abortion, and I have had more than one.
I was at a women's event nine years ago. During the intermission, my friend and I, walked around the tables that were displaying books and such for sale. I noticed we were getting closer to where Pro Life information was prominent on a table. There was a woman at the table. She tried to make eye contact and conversation. I was trying to pass by as quickly as possible without making eye contact, but it was as if a magnet was pulling me towards that table, and before I knew it, I was talking to the woman and the next thing I remember was her offering to pray with me in a private room and I said, "yes". The moment that I said, "yes", it felt like a huge weight came off of my shoulders. I really don’t recall all of her prayer or all that she said, (nor even her name), but I remember crying and sobbing like never before. I released every emotion I kept hidden under my rug for many years. As she hugged me, she stroked my hair, and kept praying over me. When I left the room to return to the event, I felt like a new woman. It was the first time I had felt like my scarlet cord of guilt, shame, and fear, was actually turning into a scarlet cord of HOPE! I had been carrying the guilt and shame for over twenty years!
That was the beginning of healing for me in this area and the beginning of learning how to accept Gods forgiveness, forgive others, and forgive myself. It was not something that happened overnight. It's been a process. One day at a time, one moment at a time.
I have shared a personal story with you, so that you could see, that the moment you become pregnant, while you have a choice, the choice stays with you, whether you choose abortion, adoption, or to keep the baby. Abortion may stop the heart beat and life, but it doesn't erase the situation, the emotions, or the memory. I know there are many women (and men) who are living in the bondage of guilt and shame for their choice in abortion.
The state of TN has passed a law stating it is now illegal to force or coerce a woman or girl into abortion. While some women or girls may go along with the idea out of fear, guilt, or the over whelming feeling that there is no other option, I can tell you there is. There is help and there is hope.
